Letter

I wanted to write you a letter.

Write, that i didn´t make it.

I failed so much.I thinked that I will do it, but you see, taht didn´t help me.

And now i´m here, saying it to you, how fail i actually are and why i don´t feel happy.

I woked up today, I really hoped that it will go away.That horrible feeling, but it didn´t.

And hear I am standing and writing you this letter and i even don´t know why.

Why it´s happening like this way.Why is not always everything oki, when i need and when i´m asking it.What I feel is fear.Fear to fail again, but i know i´m gonna fail so much more and more.

And i afraid, afraid to fall.Deem it feels like i´m not worth enything.That i´m waisting my time only.Maybe i could give it someone else, who really need it.The life what i´m living out every day.

And there they are, children who has no food, anything to wear.They are crying, because they have lost their parents and their only asking one think:"Could you love me the way I am?" Only one time, it will be enough, I will never ask it again, cause i don´t need it anymore.

So i´m asking was this your plan? That i could feel it that way.Was this in your mind?Is it coming true, to fail.Is it right to say those words right know?Is it right to feel empty?

The tears, they don´t come out and every day i feel something bigger and more beatiful.

I feel that you are still wathing me, even when i´m the one who is saying that you are bad.You ruined my life, I can´t live it that way.Actually you didn´t, you gived me hope and new life.

Boldness and a little bit yourself.You gived me a life.

I don´t know how to say thank you .But you know i wanted to say that you are bad and selfless.You don´t care and sometimes you are so so ahh.You care only yourself.

Please forgive me, that i´m speaking with you that way.So often i don´t know what i´m talking about.

I miss you God, please come back to my life, that i could shine again.